[ She can more or less assuage her self-doubt with the knowledge that she is amongst the four total people in his entire life in whom he feels he can definitively place any significant level of trust. Four might seem like a fair number, but when you consider it's basically one of those four, or something he created himself, it brings it into an altogether different light. They might all garner independently high levels, but after you realize that it's a high level or effectively none at all, it changes the perspective somewhat. Tony's trust is more or less all or nothing, because he doesn't do well with gradients or half-ways, and it's probably unfair of him as a whole but at the same time, it doesn't feel as though there's much he can do about it.
And that's the faintest hint of levity on his face, just there. For a moment. ] Yeah, I know.
[ That would be some very strange mix of realization of her importance to him and continuing fear that she's going to mess it up somehow and that that's going to mess him up and seriously, every time she looks back on how long they've been doing this now and the fact that it's still working she's amazed. She didn't know that she had it in her to stay this close to someone for this long.
Levity is good, tough. That's a very good sign. ] Now all you've got to do is take me up on it.
[ He didn't really think this was going to go over this well either, this whole relationship. He actively avoids looking back on... anything, ever, but that doesn't stop the occasional realization of the time and energy they've invested in each other by now from being something that happens from time to time. ]
[ Yeah, at this point it's gotten kind of hard to avoid or ignore the fact that this is definitely A Thing, whatever it is that they're doing. Very much so. ]
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And that's the faintest hint of levity on his face, just there. For a moment. ] Yeah, I know.
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Levity is good, tough. That's a very good sign. ] Now all you've got to do is take me up on it.
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It'll totally happen one day.
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I'll be looking forward to it.