[ That relief is really good to feel, mingling in with the emotional input and output she's moderating, and it really is a lot all together. She shudders, keeps moving and leans back just a little to adjust the angle. She hadn't been sure, at first, if this would even work, and that it has is enough for relief to fill her emotional output as well, mingle in with the pleasure and the feedback is - god, it's strong, she slows for a moment with a moan before she can continue at pace.
He'd be right in guessing that she's not the sort to easily let go of control. Trust is hard. Trusting that you can put yourself in someone else's hands at your most vulnerable and they won't hurt you sometimes approaches impossible to believe for her. With him it's mildly easier to believe, as in if the possibility came up she wouldn't immediately dismiss it with extreme prejudice. Sometimes she wonders if it's comforting, to be able to do that. To let someone else make decisions for you for a little while, to have things out of your hands. She can never make up her mind.
Seriously, interpersonal relationships. She'd sworn off of those before him, and half the time here she's still sure she's about to fuck things up somehow, horribly, make it all go wrong because her experience in genuine relationships is limited and in the 'doomed' category. She can't help that she's sometimes terrified this will go the same way. But for right now it seems to be going pretty okay, in this moment. She got this bit right, very right it seems, and she can't stop being happy about it. ]
kdhfd would you like me to threaten your honor i could do that
He'd be right in guessing that she's not the sort to easily let go of control. Trust is hard. Trusting that you can put yourself in someone else's hands at your most vulnerable and they won't hurt you sometimes approaches impossible to believe for her. With him it's mildly easier to believe, as in if the possibility came up she wouldn't immediately dismiss it with extreme prejudice. Sometimes she wonders if it's comforting, to be able to do that. To let someone else make decisions for you for a little while, to have things out of your hands. She can never make up her mind.
Seriously, interpersonal relationships. She'd sworn off of those before him, and half the time here she's still sure she's about to fuck things up somehow, horribly, make it all go wrong because her experience in genuine relationships is limited and in the 'doomed' category. She can't help that she's sometimes terrified this will go the same way. But for right now it seems to be going pretty okay, in this moment. She got this bit right, very right it seems, and she can't stop being happy about it. ]