[ 'Okay' is a really variable word, though. In technical terms she was okay, for most of that time. She had extensive PTSD and residual trauma and was stuck in a mindset that consisted only of surviving to the next day and if it was also possible planning ahead to the next mission as much as possible, but she was functioning and capable of most things. So yeah, she could be categorized as having been okay for a while. But happy or satisfied had never come into that definition, and there had been far more loss and exhaustion than anything good. ]

You don't have to take it, but it's there if you ever want it. I mean, it was probably - before you, it was probably April. But I haven't seen her in years, so I don't really remember. [ She smoothes her thumb over his cheek, lets herself fold up a little and rest her forehead against his shoulder. Point successfully made, hopefully. ] I have heard that before. I think it's harder than they suspect.