[ Some of the time she likes being an object of his observation, something that he's putting keen and careful attention towards. It's flattering, results frequently in great sex, and makes her feel somehow warmer and easier and safer. Wanted, in a way that she's craved most of her life.
Right now she'd really rather she wasn't, because this isn't something she wants to talk about and it isn't something she wants to think about and it certainly isn't something she wants him to know about. She doesn't want to have seen this because she's been doing so well, she really has, she left and she stayed gone and she's been dreaming less, the space of time between the moments she can't breathe and the world closes in getting wider and wider.
The date helps a little, but it's not enough. You're never really fixed, John had told her a long time ago, and she's never wanted to prove him wrong this badly and failed quite this much. When she starts talking it's for the sake of attempting to present some form of normality, try to distract them both from her fingers curling into her palms, her body curving in on itself as much as it can in the chair. ] They modified the design, some. The people you were contracting for. [ It's not quite accusation in her voice, but there's something a little bitter under the detachment. ] Managed to downsize some and cut out a wiring circuit that was prone to shorting out.
you totally skipped forward a year on accident
Right now she'd really rather she wasn't, because this isn't something she wants to talk about and it isn't something she wants to think about and it certainly isn't something she wants him to know about. She doesn't want to have seen this because she's been doing so well, she really has, she left and she stayed gone and she's been dreaming less, the space of time between the moments she can't breathe and the world closes in getting wider and wider.
The date helps a little, but it's not enough. You're never really fixed, John had told her a long time ago, and she's never wanted to prove him wrong this badly and failed quite this much. When she starts talking it's for the sake of attempting to present some form of normality, try to distract them both from her fingers curling into her palms, her body curving in on itself as much as it can in the chair. ] They modified the design, some. The people you were contracting for. [ It's not quite accusation in her voice, but there's something a little bitter under the detachment. ] Managed to downsize some and cut out a wiring circuit that was prone to shorting out.