[ He doesn't know what he wants for a little while. He probably wanted to be left alone, but at the same time, he really didn't want to be left alone. He wanted to be let go, and then he realized that might not be a great idea right now, and he can't just stay here, tied up with nothing to do, because that will just mean he gets to dwell on things and that is potentially the worst idea of them all, honestly. He doesn't know what he wants. He couldn't even tell her what he needs right now.
So it's a little while where he just accepts the small amounts she can give him, the small amounts she is giving him in an attempt to help him stay calm and stop with the overload. He appreciates her presence, curls into it as much as his current restraints will allow - and he still likes those, oddly. They make him feel safe when she's here, like she won't let anything happen to him, even if it's him - and takes what it will give him. He would like to kiss her - he almost needs to kiss her, really, but he doesn't quite know how to express this specifically. He can try and think it at her, stare at her lips. He doesn't want to be let go, he just wants to kiss her, he needs to, and then she can put the gag right back on, he doesn't care. It's probably a better idea if she does.
Really he just wants her to stay. He wants to stay like this until he can relax, and relax fully. Otherwise he'll get up and work himself back up and then be agitated and that won't help anyone, now will it? That would be the opposite of what she's just tried to do, what he's still trying to accept. ]
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So it's a little while where he just accepts the small amounts she can give him, the small amounts she is giving him in an attempt to help him stay calm and stop with the overload. He appreciates her presence, curls into it as much as his current restraints will allow - and he still likes those, oddly. They make him feel safe when she's here, like she won't let anything happen to him, even if it's him - and takes what it will give him. He would like to kiss her - he almost needs to kiss her, really, but he doesn't quite know how to express this specifically. He can try and think it at her, stare at her lips. He doesn't want to be let go, he just wants to kiss her, he needs to, and then she can put the gag right back on, he doesn't care. It's probably a better idea if she does.
Really he just wants her to stay. He wants to stay like this until he can relax, and relax fully. Otherwise he'll get up and work himself back up and then be agitated and that won't help anyone, now will it? That would be the opposite of what she's just tried to do, what he's still trying to accept. ]