[ He's still watching her. He'd like to close off their connection, but he feels like that would be unfair somehow. She's trying to tell him something, and while it might be something he doesn't want to listen to, he can still respect the idea of wanting to tell someone something. He doesn't think he would have ever taken it this far, because as far as he's concerned all you can do is make it obvious that you want them to know something and then their acceptance or refusal is totally on them.
Clearly, she does not share this opinion. So, he doesn't really know why he's still listening either, beyond the fact that she seems to find this important and some part of him finds it necessary to listen to things she deems important.
At first, he's not totally sure what this has to do with him. He doesn't feel as though he's been particularly there for her in any great capacity. He gave her a place to live, sure. Life insurance, but that was really just a pittance, it wasn't something he even gave a second thought - it was there more or less as a hazard of living with him. They haven't shared a whole lot with each other, and if anything that particular street has been slanted from him to her since the inception, which just means he's dumped more of his problems on her than she has on him. He doesn't feel like he's done much here beyond simply being here, and truth be told, he likes having her here for selfish reasons just as much as for her own benefit. He's not sure that really counts.
There is an instinctive negative reaction to the 'you could leave right now' part of what she just said that he can't entirely keep clamped down, but otherwise he simply pulls on the restraints again, slowly, slightly, and then tries to relax. He's got conflicting signals here, coming from his mind and his body both, and he isn't sure what to do with them all, isn't sure what to do with what she's telling him, because he can't accept it, but he can't just ignore it, and that means he's left in some sort of awkward limbo where he's forced to just sit in it, to stew in it, until he makes up his mind one way or the other. ]
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Clearly, she does not share this opinion. So, he doesn't really know why he's still listening either, beyond the fact that she seems to find this important and some part of him finds it necessary to listen to things she deems important.
At first, he's not totally sure what this has to do with him. He doesn't feel as though he's been particularly there for her in any great capacity. He gave her a place to live, sure. Life insurance, but that was really just a pittance, it wasn't something he even gave a second thought - it was there more or less as a hazard of living with him. They haven't shared a whole lot with each other, and if anything that particular street has been slanted from him to her since the inception, which just means he's dumped more of his problems on her than she has on him. He doesn't feel like he's done much here beyond simply being here, and truth be told, he likes having her here for selfish reasons just as much as for her own benefit. He's not sure that really counts.
There is an instinctive negative reaction to the 'you could leave right now' part of what she just said that he can't entirely keep clamped down, but otherwise he simply pulls on the restraints again, slowly, slightly, and then tries to relax. He's got conflicting signals here, coming from his mind and his body both, and he isn't sure what to do with them all, isn't sure what to do with what she's telling him, because he can't accept it, but he can't just ignore it, and that means he's left in some sort of awkward limbo where he's forced to just sit in it, to stew in it, until he makes up his mind one way or the other. ]