[ It's hilarious that she can't get to this part confidently but can handle it once it's here no problem. Mostly no problem. Sort of. Most people are the other way around, i.e.: I want all of the things! and then But how do I hold all these things? And right now while he's definitely less convinced of things than he was before - and that wasn't a whole lot to begin with - he's also without the next part, the handling of it. His went more in reverse, with the overwhelming part just followed by even more paralysing overwhelming parts.
He thinks about that, because the instinctive reactions - again - are highly contradictory. He's had a near-constant state of hyperawareness for a long time now, which doesn't lend to feeling super safe anywhere. He also doesn't want to ruin any of the handful of places he does feel at ease. The workshop is sanctuary, so it's immediately out. He supposes the bedroom isn't a terrible idea - clearly the sleep/interrupted sleep cycles that happen there are a decent indication of balance. Maybe. He doesn't know. ]
Yeah. That one. [ He's far less opposed to the gesture than he might have been just a few minutes ago. He doesn't react a whole lot - there's enough other things begging for reaction right now; it's not the time to start paying attention to them - but that just means he doesn't pull away anymore. ]
okaaaaaaaaay
He thinks about that, because the instinctive reactions - again - are highly contradictory. He's had a near-constant state of hyperawareness for a long time now, which doesn't lend to feeling super safe anywhere. He also doesn't want to ruin any of the handful of places he does feel at ease. The workshop is sanctuary, so it's immediately out. He supposes the bedroom isn't a terrible idea - clearly the sleep/interrupted sleep cycles that happen there are a decent indication of balance. Maybe. He doesn't know. ]
Yeah. That one. [ He's far less opposed to the gesture than he might have been just a few minutes ago. He doesn't react a whole lot - there's enough other things begging for reaction right now; it's not the time to start paying attention to them - but that just means he doesn't pull away anymore. ]