[ Logically, she knows that math, knows that there's a good reason behind it. But sometimes she can't help but feel like - well, yeah, it sounds really bad. Really bad. And sometimes it's hard to look past that.
For things he doesn't want her to know, he's making it very hard for her not to know them. She watches his face, glances away when she starts feeling like she's intruding again but looks back almost immediately, not able to stop watching him. She needs to know. Or wants to know, or needs to be able to help him and therefore wants to know. It's complicated. ]
I could help. [ A wave of something close to exhausted frustration in her voice for a moment before it recedes. The rationalization of all the reasons you don't need help is something she's perfectly familiar with, but that only means that she knows how much they don't work, in the end. ] Tony, please. [ It's what I'm for, but she swallows that down. This isn't about any roles assigned to them by genetics or whatever it is that results in Sentinel and Guide. It's not about comfort because it's ordained by a set of instincts. She wants to help because he matters to her, more than anything, because he deserves to have someone to help him. ]
You don't deserve to have it cycle back again and again. Let me help.
her own past reasons for saying no to help i swear one day i'll stop shorthanding stuff
For things he doesn't want her to know, he's making it very hard for her not to know them. She watches his face, glances away when she starts feeling like she's intruding again but looks back almost immediately, not able to stop watching him. She needs to know. Or wants to know, or needs to be able to help him and therefore wants to know. It's complicated. ]
I could help. [ A wave of something close to exhausted frustration in her voice for a moment before it recedes. The rationalization of all the reasons you don't need help is something she's perfectly familiar with, but that only means that she knows how much they don't work, in the end. ] Tony, please. [ It's what I'm for, but she swallows that down. This isn't about any roles assigned to them by genetics or whatever it is that results in Sentinel and Guide. It's not about comfort because it's ordained by a set of instincts. She wants to help because he matters to her, more than anything, because he deserves to have someone to help him. ]
You don't deserve to have it cycle back again and again. Let me help.