[ It wasn't that the day was terrible. But she'd dreamed, last night, in the way that's been slowly tapering off more these days and therefore becomes even more irritating when it does happen, and then when she'd gone out to try and shake it off the small things had crowded in on her, the way at the grocery she couldn't stop herself from watching the security cameras, the effort it took to keep from reacting to the man on the sidewalk who brushed too close.
Going out had been the sort of mistake that made her slowly feel more and more raw, like someone was stripping off the veneer of normalcy that she's been building, and she knows from past experience that by tomorrow she'll be able to breathe in deep and feel that one step closer to normal again but for right now that doesn't feel much like it matters.
Coming back home (Tony's, home, it's synonymous in her head) at least gives her more control over herself, some sense of stability, but she's still pent up and wound tight as she tosses her keys onto the counter and the groceries beside them and starts to search for Tony. It's instinctive, no real intent behind it but that she likes knowing where he is and that right now knowing where he is would be especially good. She doesn't call his name as she searches, just looks ahead of her with her mind and wanders. ]
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Going out had been the sort of mistake that made her slowly feel more and more raw, like someone was stripping off the veneer of normalcy that she's been building, and she knows from past experience that by tomorrow she'll be able to breathe in deep and feel that one step closer to normal again but for right now that doesn't feel much like it matters.
Coming back home (Tony's, home, it's synonymous in her head) at least gives her more control over herself, some sense of stability, but she's still pent up and wound tight as she tosses her keys onto the counter and the groceries beside them and starts to search for Tony. It's instinctive, no real intent behind it but that she likes knowing where he is and that right now knowing where he is would be especially good. She doesn't call his name as she searches, just looks ahead of her with her mind and wanders. ]