[ She used it as a thought exercise in prison, mostly. Rote memorization of a pattern was pretty useful at that point. ] It's more fun to do the actual work, though. A lot more fun. And it takes more time.
[ For him, maybe, but she's entirely used to feeling bad. Feeling bad was kind of the norm, really, to the point where having the ability to make her feel bad wasn't any kind of threat at all. So the ability to make her feel good, that became the rarity, and subsequently in some situations a threat. That's changed, finally, here with him, but it's still a slow process of realization that it's going to stay changed. That sometimes people just want you to feel good without questionable ulterior motives. And people create the issues, yes. But up until him she hadn't really found anything that bridged the gap. (Hadn't really gone looking, either, but.) Objects don't hold almost any meaning to her. ]
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[ For him, maybe, but she's entirely used to feeling bad. Feeling bad was kind of the norm, really, to the point where having the ability to make her feel bad wasn't any kind of threat at all. So the ability to make her feel good, that became the rarity, and subsequently in some situations a threat. That's changed, finally, here with him, but it's still a slow process of realization that it's going to stay changed. That sometimes people just want you to feel good without questionable ulterior motives. And people create the issues, yes. But up until him she hadn't really found anything that bridged the gap. (Hadn't really gone looking, either, but.) Objects don't hold almost any meaning to her. ]